I feel really awful all the time and I know it’s cliched but I can’t stop thinking about how much I don’t want to be here.
the trains outside my window are as loud as that night in amsterdam when the traffic was really loud and i was the most stoned i will ever be.
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all i did today was nap and watch the office and eat ramen and kind of re-arrange my room, Roommate Bob must think i’m sucha loser. he ain’t rrong!
i created this nook of bookcases that looks like it was designed by an aspiring home decorator age seven
omg when i get drunk i regress into a five year old. i’m the most important thing and everyone has to listen to me and include me and i have to be part of every conversation, i don’t know why i still have friends sometimes
today i’m going to go out and sit somewhere outside and eat maybe frescos and drink a bunch of diet coke and read cat’s cradle and then i’m going to buy my bitch ass roommates toilet paper. but first i’m going to fix up my room all nice but i’m having trouble doing that without a diet coke. also, going to gorge myself on cloud nothings because i have to interview them...
i like my new place and my old friends
all i ate yesterday was an egg sandwich and a veggie jimmy johns sub which is i guess a normal amount of food but not really for summer-cat, but then i drank my weight in alcohol. and then smoked a pack of cigarettes omg vomit (which i didn’t, thanks)
doesn’t want to travel on the amtrak on september 11th because she’s nervous about someone bombing it and i’m just like, if it happens it happens and it would be sad for all those people but not the worst thing for me
i can’t even find the motivation to go to sleep
i should start wearing make up or something.
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can’t get out of that obsessive phase
i feel like fashion these days is a culmination of every previous decade which has never happened before, further proof that the world will have to end soon
my dad asked me how i coped because he says i keep things bottled up and to myself and i was thinking that i get drunk as much as i can and take uppers when i can and i never let people see me cry and i will forever be contemplating suicide.
julia, in preparation for this school year i want to overstate the obvious and remind you that we need to focus on finding molly and a steady supply of adderall. and school work i guess.